Have you tried living with yourself

I don’t how you do it, or how you put me through it

Seeing ghosts sitting on my counter, living in picture frames it’s painful to tame you and I thought I could do it

Protecting what’s of left of me, behind your phone screen, at least your in love with something at least you can feel things

I have been allowed to feel anything since our predicament began and you wonder g why I ran

 

You listless boy

Come to your senses

Figure out something your own

Your bore me

Annoy me

Depress me

Repress me

I’m so fucked with you right now

Get along and alone

 

I’m tired of being like you want me to

I’m pariah'd by your messiah bullshit

If you think I can’t push you away just try staying, or staying true

 

And when I find an out

I don’t know

Something to challenge you about

Then I’m leaving

Leaving

Everything to you

 

I’ll give back your issues, the parts your pride you tried to instil inside me

You’ve tried me, now I’m looking to remedy every petty propensity leant to me by your gas lighting I’ve lived every under you that you thought to allow me

I’m drowning 

You’re this part of me I’m 

Tryna take in my stride 

Tryna see me

I hope your the one who’ll been left reeling

 

I’m tired of being like you want me to

I’m pariah'd by your messiah bullshit

If I’m leaving 

I’ll leave everything to you 

 

Even if my persons yelling curses at my brain as it starts

to break this routine that I’ve made to contain all your sins that I’ve pardoned while

Waiting patiently has left me wanting as you claim all your wrongs as

My fault, my task, my all

 

I’m tired of being like you want me to

I’m pariah'd by your messiah bullshit

If you think I can’t push you away just try staying, or staying true

 

And when I find an out

I don’t know

Something to challenge you about

Then I’m leaving

Leaving

Everything to you